This had a huge impact on my personality I’ve become introverted, and until today I have a great desire to please people in order to feel loved. At high school, I was bullied for not being manly enough.
He would arouse me at night and encourage me to do the same to him. Around the age of 14-15, I was sexually abused my uncle. When I was around 12 years old, I started watching gay porn, because I believed looking at naked women was a sin (I was naive I know). My mother is deeply religious and alhumdulilah we were brought up being religious, too.
I've always felt attraction towards boys, and studying in a boys’ school and living in strictly segregated Saudi Arabia didn't really help.
Being the second son, I was always very much attached to my mother and didn't have much openness with my father which is the case even today. I am 26 years old and have been facing this problem ever since I know myself.
